Saturday, July 4, 2015

life and aeroplanes

Since my last post in February it's like a veil has been lifted off my eyes and I've metamorphosed into something new. I just reread my last post and would like to capture just a bit of that buzz back, even though technically I'm still doing really well.

Best news first - I have some light regrowth in my bald spots. Huzzah!!!!!

I've continued most of my previous post regime, although Ill be honest that I've been really slack in the last few weeks with my green juices and I can honestly say I've seen the difference in my energy (much lower) as a result,

Most of the rest I've continued religiously. Lemon water every morning, nails and pamper time with my bestie, work email is back on my phone as I'm in the middle of a bucket load of regional travel for work, however I'm not checking it after hours so, so far so good!

My ten year relationship ended in April and that was pretty tough. I'm through the other side and feel remarkably relieved to be 100% in charge of my own life again. Its an amazing feeling to realise that you were in charge all along but easily relinquished control mentally so often. My bad!

In the next 3 months Ill be away for work in regional WA 27 days. That's a whole lot of plane trips, 13 from memory. I hate flying pretty much more than anything else. It just doesn't agree with me, I get terribly sick 3/4 of the time. But I get to see this beautiful country and to that I am very grateful.


I upgraded the male in my life to a new kitten. Half Russian Blue half Ragdoll, his name is Merlin and as you would imagine is ridiculously adorable.

Below are some pics from the last few months, of my adventures in Broome, Esperance and Port Hedland for work, and the new kitty!
Sunrise on the way to Esperance
Arty Esperance


Stunning Broome

Blue skies in Broome

The fluro's in the plane on the way to Port Hedland at some ungodly hour of the morning

beautiful Port Hedland at Pretty Pool

Pretty Pool, Port Hedland

Pretty Pool, Port Hedland

Merlin aged 16 weeks

Monday, February 9, 2015

The journey continues

Its been a while between posts - I blame work to be honest. After staring at a screen all day the last thing I want to do when I get home is more of the same. We eat early at my house because we go to bed early and get up early. The joys of living with a Postie.

But its been an inspiring few weeks and I promised I was going to document my AA journey. To be honest, its turned into more of a healthy body and mind journey and AA isnt really the focus for me anymore. AA is the symptom, not the cause. I need to fix the cause, or at least nurse it back to health.

So what have I been doing in the last few weeks that's making me feel so positive?

I start every day with 1/2 a lemon squeezed into warm water with a dash of honey. It detoxes and alkaline's my body for the day. Then I drink water. As much as I can. I've swapped two strong coffees for lemon and water as my start to the day. At first I was attempting coffee after the lemon water. It just didn't work for me. I now don't crave coffee until after I've had breakfast. Weird but true.

I'm eating breakfast more regularly than I ever have. If not a hearty start of eggs or fruit, then I have a green smoothie packed with kale, cucumber, apple, celery, ginger, berries and stone fruit. I add cacao and hemp seeds. Bam! Its such a fab start and more goodness than I use to eat in a whole day.

I've been back at work for a month now, since diagnosis and a 3 week break over Xmas/New Year. I've have stuck to my resolution and the work email remains completely off my mobile phone. It is no longer the last thing I do before going to sleep. I cant believe I used to lie there stewing over work emails while I should have been sleeping. And relaxing.

I've continued getting my nails done with shellac polish so they are strong. They were chipping and breaking and annoying me no end. Coupled with this 'me' time (something I had been denying myself tremendously well in past years) is the time I spend with my good friend from childhood, who dragged me along with her the first time. The time we spent giggling and chatting was relaxing and better than housework any day!

I've enjoyed a range of activities recently on a Saturday, where traditionally I would stay at home working on my online vintage shop or doing housework. So there's the above mentioned nails with my friend, I've done meditation, Sound healing (in a sound reflective chamber with crystal bowls, gongs and didgeridoo) Reiki, the beach and doing craft.

I went back to my new naturopath last Saturday and he was delighted to see I'm 60% there in improving oxygen supply to my brain and hormone balancing in my body. He said "whatever You're doing - keep doing it!" When I told him I'm off my back medication and he asked me what my doctor said, I was thrilled to say that my doctor didn't know because I'm not sick and I haven't needed to go see him. Nor will I ever again to that one. He is not a healer and his so called care was detrimental to my health. I was more unhealthy in his 'care' than I have been at any other time in my life. I believe it was on the medication Lyrica that my gut became leaky and my autoimmune disease was triggered. There are proven links between Alopecia and Lyrica but my doctor never mentioned it and in fact said I could be on Lyrica safely for the rest of my life.

Instead of medications I am now taking supplements. Flax seed oil, Vitamin D, Calcium, Krill oil, Vitamin C, Magnesium and hormone balancing/vitality supplements.

I have less back pain now than when I was medicated. My eyes are open and I am now receiving so much information about my own health. I am inspired to nurture myself and my health and stay away from my fright or flight zone so my body can heal itself - which you need to be calm and relaxed for it to happen.

I'm loving this journey.

Monday, January 19, 2015

Whirlwind week of highs and lows, wins and losses

So, where could I possibly start.

Having never been to a naturopath before, I took the advice of a friend and sought out a very well known one in my area. In the month I waited for my appointment, anyone I mentioned it to seemed to have heard of him and his silky skills. I got more and more excited as the appointment approached, which coincided with repeated trips back to my hopeless GP as we went through the process of blood tests and him delivering results in a monotone, emotionless way. I had to ask for just about every blood test, I was determined to find what had triggered my alopecia. I repeatedly asked him if the medication I'd been on for the last two years could be causing this and he repeatedly said I could stay on it for the rest of my life with no side effects. I believed him.

Within 3 minutes of me entering my naturopaths consulting rooms, with very little conversation between us, he told me that the medication was depleting all the calcium from my body. He also told me that my back issue was misdiagnosed. Yes I may have displaced disks, but the pain was coming from a twisted muscle that had displaced the disks. He untwisted it there and then. I went off the medication that very same day. I can sleep on my back for the first time in two years.

I'm taking natural supplements to restore my health. I've been told that I will have alopecia for life, although my naturopath says he will cure that too. Right now I feel like I am taking some steps to regain control of my life again, rather than being controlled by the medication.

Next step is to take control of the stress in my life. The work email is off my phone now, I've even turned off vibrate so no pesky alerts can disturb my sleep, even when the phone is on silent.

I'm drinking more green smoothies, eating less crap, have cut down on sugared refined foods and am slowly starting to crave healthier options.
My unexpected journey has begun.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

New items added to the shop

It's been AGES since I've done a shop update on the blog, in fact ALL of my most recent posts have been about my health. Sorry about that - but with Facebook, twitter, pinterest, instagram and the blog, as well as two Etsy shops - I just couldn't handle splitting my blogs up into the different interest areas. Writing all of that makes me realise I could do with a little simplification in my life, especially considering the shop is meant to be a hobby lol.

So anyway, here are the latest random items to be added to the shop. I'm well over due to do a proper photo shoot with my gorgeous models and my racks of clothes, however, for now, this will have to keep you satiated.

First up is this Vintage Retro Australian 1960s Lady Sunbeam Portable Hairdryer

Rather amazing Retro Vintage Australian Lady Sunbeam Portable Hairdryer
Made in Australia by Sunbeam Corporation
The case is damaged at the hinge but the hairdryer is in great condition
Includes a couple of original curlers, hairpins and curler pins and original carry strap for multitasking!

This is great as a collectors piece but can also be used and a nail dryer too!
It weighs 5.5 kilos so unfortunately would cost a bomb for international buyers to ship, however please do convo me should you want to ship internationally!

$20 + $25 postage within Australia
WA buyers - pick up option available - just convo me before purchasing!


https://www.etsy.com/au/listing/217505099/vintage-retro-australian-1960s-lady


and here a pair of Vintage 1970's blue denim Men's shorts
A large sized pair of men’s vintage blue denim shorts
cotton
Made in Australia

Measurements:
Size medium
All measurements are taken lying flat unless provided on the garment label and should be measured against your own clothing for accuracy.

Waist size: 95 cm / 38"
$20 + postage within Australia
International postage options available

Here we have a gorgeous Vintage 1980's Cabbage Patch Kid Doll 
Great condition - she could do with some clothes!
WA buyers - pick up option available - just message me before purchasing!
$35 + postage within Australia

Lots more being added to the shop today - vintage purses and bags, an A Team jigsaw and Vintage lotto game and some vintage patterns will be added to the other shop VintageTwistPattern tomorrow with any luck.

Busy Busy Busy!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

I believe in signs

Do you believe in signs?
For well over a year now I've been seeing feathers in my path. Mainly at the park when I'm walking my beautiful Weimaraner dogs, but also in other places that are more random, like in the city on my path to work.

Anyway, so that's the feathers. Then, shortly after my diagnosis with AA, I was op shopping and found a stack of Barbie and Brats dolls. They were so cheap that I grabbed all the ones that didn't have missing limbs for my nieces and action man doll for my nephew for when they came to my place for xmas day. They weren't the hit that I thought they would be, however, I also picked up a doll that seemed poignant to find, for myself. She now sits on a shelf above my computer as a sort of mascot for me. I already own a long straight purple wig you see. Those of you following the blog in the past would know that if you've seen my Etsy shop. The purple wig has starred in some of the shots. Like this one of Devon my niece-in-law.

So imagine my suprise when I found the below doll, with removable purple hair. Woah! Talk about a sign from I dont know where but I got it!



So AA Mascot she has become and just to top it off, I shit you not, I was just on my way to get another round of blood tests, driving down the road, I see a blond wig in the middle of the road.


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

A New Year and some tough choices

I'm quitting sugar!
I figure if I say it out loud I have a chance at sticking to this decision!

I have long suspected that my gut can no longer process sugar and highly processed foods. I recently found a name for what I think I've been experiencing - Leaky gut Syndrome! It's this weird sickly feeling in your gut in the morning when you've had a few drinks or eaten foods high in sugar the night before.

I used to drink Jack Daniel's and coke zero. Started to feel sick the next morning. When I say sick, it wasn't from being hungover as such. I would only ever have around 3 large drinks every other Friday night. Then I swapped to mixing it with dry ginger ale. That worked for a while and then the same thing started to happen.

Then I noticed it happening after a night of sugary deserts or sweets.

I know this is going to be tricky for me. I know I may have moments of weakness. I will try my hardest because I feel like sugar may be toxic for me.

I have sugarless coffee, have done for many years now. It's chocolate that is going to be the killer. OMG I love chocolate.

My Alopecia spots have been really itchy the last few days. I got M to shave the underneath for me again as I obsess less over the difference in length at the back when there is relative even smoothness back there.

I've been rubbing my coconut oil and essential oil mix in every few days, which provides some relief.

So I've read a lot about the links between AA and sugar, AA and wheat & gluten.
I've pretty much eliminated gluten, bar the odd fruit mince pie in the last few days.

It's time to up the anti and see what sugar free means to me.

I'm in the middle of a few AA books and loving them all. I'll add them to the AA page for easy access.

One is about going forward Boldly Bald as a woman, in the same way men are accepted to do so. I braved the E Reader land for this one to give me something to read through my frequent bouts of insomnia of late. I also have another downloaded for after that one, by a young lady who grew a full head of hair back by changing her diet completely. I've already got her cookbook and have been enjoying her juices and smoothie recipes in the last few days.

Then there is one about acceptance accompanied by beautiful soothing images, all words and pictures created by the same lady who has had AA for 30 years.

And another presenting the cold hard facts of the disease and potential things in your body that may be 'out of whack' and strategies for correcting them. It came with a meditation CD that I will try tonight (just as long as I can get it onto my phone!!!)

Time to face the day!
Happy New Year to one and all
x

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

All I want for Xmas is......

Some can probably guess what the answer is.... Yes selfishly I only want my hair to stop falling out. I don't care if the spots don't grown back.

I've gone into disguise mode and have had my hair shortened in a blunt bob with the largest spots at the back and underneath shaved in a mod undercut.


I had this exact haircut when I hung out with mods and rude boys when I was 16.

So I had a few teary meltdowns this week. As my hair thins in general all over my head, I'm finding it everywhere. My clothes, pillow, bathroom, car and brushes are covered. The not knowing is excruciating. Not knowing if I will lose the lot or not.

I've quit gluten, reduced dairy but sugar is still well and truly in the picture. The more I try to deny the more I crave it. NYE resolution?

Insomnia has paid me a visit this morning as I write this it's 3:30am. It's windy outside and I can't turn my brain off. But as M will be getting up in a little over an hour, I'm going to give sleep another go.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa spots galore

I was so will-powered up at the work xmas party yesterday. I ignored the cheese platters and chocolate, strudel and cheesecake. I ignored the bread, bread sticks, dips and feta salad. There was still plenty of GF options and Dairy free things for me to eat and I was full to bursting.

Came home and bought the family pizza while I happily ate a mango and a peach.

Then as Im watching TV I discover several new spots, all at the back of my head. I've been doing (nearly) everything right so why is it getting worse instead of slowing?

Im still 3 weeks away from seeing a naturopath and 6 weeks until my dermatologist appointment. I figure ill have no bloomin hair left by that point!!!!!

Im going to enjoy some funky short hair cuts over summer while I can.
Heres one Im really liking:

Ahhhhhh I am trying to find the positives when all I wanna do is sook! Alopecia is beginning to take over my life :( 


Saturday, December 13, 2014

Diagnosis confirmed, time with friends and random snowmen

Yesterday, my blood tests confirmed I have the markers of an autoimmune disease. I have now had blood tests that are more sensitively pinpointing what that might be.

I also purchased some essential oils to mix with a coconut base, to use as a hair tonic/rub
You can find the recipe I used here:
http://www.pinterest.com/pin/384565255655634024/

and other recipes and Alopecia related pins on the board I created to collect what I find on pinterest here:
http://www.pinterest.com/vintagetwists/alopecia-areata/

I very much wanted to spend the day at home after getting the results. Then I started to feel hungry for spinach. Which evolved to Eggs Bennedict with smoked salmon instead of my beloved bacon. I went home from the doctors via the local supermarket and stocked up on ingredients, then via the fruit & veg shop for much fresher fruit and vegies (lots of coloured fruit and greens after watching my new heros ted talk about minding your mitochondria)

I made my man and myself a delicious brunch of GF bread, hollandaise sauce instead of butter (baby steps) smoked salmon, a pile of spinach and rocket greens topped with a poached egg for myself and 3 poached eggs for him. OMG yum.

This kept me going until mid afternoon when I munched on a cacao and hazelnut GF, Lactose free and sugar free fruit bar (Ive started keeping a few in my handbag so Im not tempted to by crappy food when Im out)

I also now have small bags of walnuts, dried cranberries and cacao nibs near my computer desk for munching on between meals.

I think the thing to note here is I am preparing ahead to avoid my known weak points in regards to diet. Replacing fast food and pre-packaged foods with healthy options I have conveniently prepared ahead of time for myself, is a way of avoiding bad choices when I'm short on time.

And just for fun, I messaged my friend out of the blue and asked her what her plans were for the afternoon. We ended up and a beauty salon doing nails and having a lovely time together laughing and regressing to our teenage years (we've known each other since I was 13)

and here is the end result!


Thursday, December 11, 2014

Food wins, test results and reminders from friends

Last night I made my own meal in my 'chalet' (I'm still on the road in regional WA) and in light of the changes that I'm trying to make to my diet to slow the fall-out rate of my hair, I feel like I'm starting to crave what I need, rather than what I want.

The result was that Im also getting better at hunting and gathering. lols. I ended up with an yummy salad of green leafy spinach and lettuce with avocado, tomato, mushroom and cucumber, with a squeeze of fresh lemon. That salad took up 3/4's of my plate, balanced out with a tin of kippered herring.
For so long my meals have been balanced with less vegies and more meat and carbs. Its great to see I'm starting to win some mental wars. Once we all get over bad foods as a reward to ourselves and start on a real path of good foods being the reward instead, we can make better choices and ultimately feel happier and healthier.

Today I will find out the results of my blood tests. I'm not anxious - I just want to know what I'm dealing with and start to confront it head on.

I online shopped yesterday for three books to read over my summer break from work:

  • If Your Hair Falls Out, Keep Dancing!: How to Cope with Alopecia Areata in a Hair-Obsessed World by Leslieanne Butler
  • Alopecia and Wellness: Healthy recipes for everyday BY MOLLY VAZQUEZ
  • Regrowing Hair Naturally: Effective Remedies and Naturally Treatments for Men and Women with Alopecia Areata, Alopecia Androgenetica, Telogen Effluvium and Other Hair Loss Problems by Vera Peiffer
After an early morning text with a friend, I was reminded that my hair loss may be temporary. For all the emotions and turmoil, uncertainty and changes I will now face, I still have my life and for that I am eternally grateful.

One of my favourite things to do when I travel for work, is do a bit of rummaging in the remote op shops for unearthed treasures that belong in my online vintage shop Vintage Twists. Sadly there was no such place to be found in quiet 'lil Onslow. 

Thankfully, the beach (which I can see from my chalet) is FULL of shells.

I spent time collecting enough for a mobile, which will provide a focal point for remembering my contemplative time in town. The crafting of said mobile will provide meditative opportunities for reflection and pretty sounds outside my kitchen window to add to my wooden chimes from Bali.

I like collecting shells, like a bloomin' child, because it forces me to slow down and appreciate nature, to notice the teeny tiny perfectly formed baby shells and the time weathered ones. Onslow's beach is litterred with super old coral, the colours of sand and sea are different, stained by the mineral rich Pilbara red earth. I'm looking forward to coming back next year and sharing the arts with the community.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Food war in my head

Dilemma's seem to be around every corner for me at the moment. They are all me, me, me and to be completed honest I feel self indulgent and full of myself.


So I'm travelling for work at the moment, in a North west coastal town, with a small population of under 1000. I'm here for three days so I figure ill treat myself to a nice meal out tonight and made a stop at the small supermarket to grab some snacks and lunch. I'm trying, you see, to halt the extent of my hair-fall-out by drastically changing my diet. From the small amount of research I've done so far I have found overwhelming links to gluten, meat and dairy intolerances and alopecia. The alopecia friendly diets also suggest the abstaining from processed and fried foods and also sugar.


So, there was very little fresh food on offer at the grocery store as they were waiting on their weekly delivery (the things you take for granted in the city huh!) and I left with a tin of tuna, herring slices, rice crackers (processed but ffs I needed something to have with my bloody tuna in the absence if any green leafy salad) an avocado, an apple and a banana. Far from my usual work travel fair of bread, a hot chook and lumps of cheese!!!


Now I'm sitting I a stunning find of a steakhouse, an amazing view, and after a gut wrenching appraisal of the menu I FORCE myself to get the lamb salad, minus the bloody lamb! Post ordering, I realised there is friggin quinoa and fetta in it too.


I so shoulda got a steak and chips. Would have been heaps happier. Bloody quinoa. Ugggh there's just no tarting that shit up. Looked delicious but over-bearing flavours in the dressing that made me give up halfway through.

Monday, December 8, 2014

Alopecia Areata

I've been recently diagnosed with AA and have decided to start blogging about my experience from the very early stages.

I've been trying to get my hands on information, which is frustratingly difficult, even in this age of the internet. Here I can share what I find, or at least, my journey. Today is Monday. Last Tuesday I think it was, I had my hand in my hair as usual, when I felt a weird bit of bare skin at the base of my skull.

Hairless.

I promptly forgot about it.

On Thursday I felt it again and asked my friend Nattie to take a look at it. She went one step further, took a photo, and made me call my doctor to make an appointment.

I was able to get in fairly quickly that afternoon and left work quiet distressed with what I'd just seen.

My doctor promptly pulled a few hairs out and studied them, diagnosing AA straight away.  He looked in his medical dictionary, told me it was an autoimmune disease,  nodded to himself, turned to his computer and started printing out referrals to dermatologists.

When I asked what I could do to prevent the disease, he said "buy a wig". Hopeless! I said, "Well I guess I'll go home and google then!"

I asked to look at his medical dictionary so I could perhaps learn something he hadn't told me. Nope, he had pretty much summed up all there was to say.

So I came home and googled. I learnt that there were connections to diet, depression and stress. Looking back on 2014 and I know I had issues with all three of those.

I have made instant changes to my diet, some will take me longer.
I've only had one small slice of Turkish bread since last Thursday. A small sprinkle of cheese on my vegie ish lasagna (I used half the amount of bolognese sauce and swapped the lasagna sheets for slices of eggplant and zucchini) One egg.
I've increase my fruit intake (need the antioxidents) upped the veggie intake, reduced to almost none the dairy, meat and eggs. Increased the oily fish, nuts and beans.
Ive swapped milk in coffee for coconut milk.
I've had chocolate every single night. Fuck it right!

I had blood tests this morning. Will see what they say before freaking out too much. I asked to be tested for all sorts of things and he's added a few of his own in for good measure.
Here is a picture of my hair loss so far:

Monday, April 2, 2012

Follow up: Gifted Vintage

All those who have read my previous post are most likely frothing at the mouth in anticipation of seeing the gift of vintage goodness I was given by a lovely fellow vintage lover in Western Australia. The package arrived while I was away on business in Brisbane, but I did remember to take some photos as I hastily ripped open the packaging on my return.

Inside my suprise package was 3 baby dresses (I gave the two white ones to my work friend Channerrrrrrrrrrrrrrsssssssssssss as she is expecting a baby girl) I've kept the blue and purple dress for myself and the three on the right have just been photographed for my shop VintageTwists

Fans of my facebook page VintageTwists will have already seen them in my sneaky peaks folder uploaded on Sunday, but see the below pics for a better view of these beautiful dresses. Proof that good people do exist.



Best of all..... my shop is on sale at the moment with a whopping 49% off the entire shop. Grab a bargain before they are all snapped up!

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Proof nice people do still exist!

A while ago, I got this suprise message in my Etsy inbox:

"Hi there,
I was just wondering if you would like a couple of dresses for your shop? I collected them to wear but decided to cull a few things. I was going to take them back to the op shop but thought you might like them for your shop.
If so I can post them to you."

So of course I replied back with "send me pics and what you want for them and Ill let you know"

Today I received this response.
"No I don't want any money for them. I will just post them to you. If you like them, you can put them in your shop. If you don't you can pass them on to the op shop. No worries.
Just email me your address and I'll post in the next week."

I am gobsmacked - there ARE still nice people in the world. Unbeleivable!
 
I will be sure to post some pictures of what arrives. Until then, go forth with the knowledge that nice people do still exist in this world. That lovely woman is Karmas poster girl. She deserves good things to happen to her because she has given me something so unexpected - faith in random acts of kindness!
 
I often thrift gift. I have an unwritten rule with myself that when I aqquire new or thrifted items for my own wardrobe I do a clean out. What can't go into my own shop goes into a bag of "for my mates", what doesnt make it into that bag goes in a special box to go back to the op shop. I have many a time picked up items from my local that Ive sent there myself (yes I snicker that the price tag is the same as what I payed for it - amazing when you think about how much a single item can have cost if it has cycled through various new and second hand shops!)
 
Today I look forward to time with my sister and neices with my youngest Zac as well. We are heading to the Hyde Park Fair - to share childhood memories of when our mother would take us to this very same fair 30 years ago - I reckon she will be there in spirit - tousling her grandchildrens hair and filling our hearts with love!

Monday, February 20, 2012

Autism support in Australia, but only if you are under 7. What the?

Food for thought! But what about those kids diagnosed after the age of 7? and those who receive support until the age of 7? Is 7 a magic number? Do kids suddennly become cured of Autism at age 7? Hmmmm.
http://www.nbnnews.com.au/index.php/2012/02/20/package-delivers-the-goods/

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Currently reading.....normal stuff!!!!

I tend to get hooked into one author or genre for ages. In the interest of broadening my horizons a bit I have gone of the beaten track to test two very different styles out recently. Well, different for me that is!

I've mentioned before that working for a theatre company has some fairly serious perks. Last year we premiered Tim Wintons first penned play (all his previous plays have been adapted from novels and done so by other playwrights) I met Mr Winton with very little star glaze. Dont get me wrong, I adore the play Cloudstreet, but have as yet not got round to reading the novel. So, as Im sitting at my desk in the office, with Tim Winton hanging out having a chat, I am struck by, not only how lovely and down to earth the man is, but also how, well, ordinary he is.

Which is what makes his writing so endearing. He finds detail in the most ordinary everyday moments and helps his readers slow down long enough to notice the little things and find a new appreciation in something that had never stood out before.

Watching a doco recently about 'how the brain works' I now realise that this is the brains way of stopping us overloading each day. If we noticed every little detail as we move through the world we simply wouldn't be able to function, we would simply get nothing done. We'd all be like hippy's, stopping to smell the roses and appreciate the way the light filters through the trees at a particular time of the day and the colours produced give you warm fuzzies. (Ok maybe that last bit is more to do with me being a lighting nerd and missing creating immensly....)

So, I've had this 'insight' recently. Artists, whether they be the visual/ textile/ sculpture kind, photographers, designers, performers, writers, musicians etc - they see the world differently to those that are artsy challenged. They see what everyone else is too busy to see.

When my employer produces a theatrical production, they are discecting moments in time and amplifying the effect as they project their sound and images to their audience. For example; a lighting design manipulates and controls what the audience should focus on at any given time. The colours they use may be naturalistc to convince us of a particular time of day or temperature. They may also use non naturlistic colours to symbolise an idea at a basic level. Wash the stage in red as someone is murderred. Green backlight as the wicked witch gets her evil on. This is similar across all the designers, with costumes that symbolise their character etc. Every single choice made by a production team is specifically to point out to the audience that 'you should be noticing this, this is important'

Again, I have diverted!

So, Ive been reading Tim Winton. First was "The Turning" followed by "Dirt Music." Both left me with a profound need to travel and desire to notice more. Reading Tim's stuff is such a breath of fresh air and a lovely break from my usual paranormal 20 book long series'.

I've also finally started reading a recent purchase that was in itself long overdue. "Adolescents on the Autism Spectrum - A Parent's guide to the Cognitive, Social, Physical, and Transitional Needs of Teenagers with Autism Spectruim Disorders", by Chantal Sicile-Kira.

It is a broad rangeing overview of a broad spectrum disorder. There is plenty that doesn't relate directly to Z, my youngest, who is on the spectrum. But there have also be plenty of 'A-Ha!" moments to give me food for thought too. Only a small way into in so far so will report back when I've progressed further into it.

This post took me three sessions to finish over as many weeks. I've had a terribly sore back with a pinched nerve, so sitting down makes it worse! Made it really hard to keep on top of the shop or blog. Onwards and upwards - to better health and clearer understanding!

Friday, January 6, 2012

Z, ASD and transitioning

It's been an up and down few weeks in the house, with the usual kids visit with their father down south with his family - a whirlwind one week visit - which usually does more to upset Z than I believe it does good.

That, along with xmas and all the hoo ha, the festive season is generally a time of extreme emotions and reactions for Z because routine flies out the window. Routine is something that HFA (High Functioning Autism) kids come to rely on as a way to get through the day without any major shifts if emotions.

Compounding all of this though is a fairly significant step for Z, the transition from primary school to high school. After a particularly long and drawn out tantrum (Bear in mind that Z is turning 13 this year) at 10pm one night this week - initially a reaction to being made to do the dishes (his job) after letting them pile up for two days - which then blew out into a tirade of self abusive slurs about his own abilities, emotions, lack of friends etc.

Sitting on the kitchen floor with him I managed to somehow reach him during his meltdown. This has become much easier to do since he was diagnosed a few years ago. For him, having a label for his reactions made it easier for him to have more control over 'coming back' from an episode. It also gave me more understanding of what he was going through (less focussing on how I had gone wrong in my parenting). We had a chat. He admitted that although he had grown more confident in the last year he had still been bullied at school, often by kids younger than him. My heart broke - why hadnt he told me - he said that that was not something you want to admit to anyone!

I have ordered some books. He doesnt want to go to a peadiatric psych, so for now we will see what we can do together, but I have made it clear that in the best interest of his health we will not rule out outside help if it is needed.

One book is for me, but is also suitable for Z to read:
Adolescents on the Autism Spectrum: A Parent's Guide to the Cognitive, Social, Physical, and Transition Needs of Teenagers with Autism Spectrum Disorders

the second is for Z:
Living Well on the Spectrum: How to Use Your Strengths to Meet the Challenges of Asperger Syndrome/High-Functioning Autism

 We will soldier on!
A

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Xmas, holidays and guilt free Vintage Twists time

Goodness, it HAS been a while between posts!
Looking back over the last month and its been all about getting listings into the shop, finishing off work in the office (at my full time job) before my christmas break and getting the house ready for  xmas day.

I had three weekdays off before xmas weekend. I spent every single one of them at the shops in the morning and cleaning in the afternoon. I must be insane! Within minutes of collecting my kids from their week away with their Dad I immediately regretted spending those three days in a shopping and cleaning frenzy - instead wishing I had beached myself on the couch with books and girly movies. I had wasted my quiet sanctury of three blissful days with no kids and my significant other at work. What. A. Dimwit! The continuous chatter offering of random facts and ensuing sibling rivalry that badgerred me for the 40 minute drive home was like a hammer on my head, me the nail, bashing sense into me for next time with each and every thump and thwack. Must. Spend. More. Time. Doing. What. I. Love.

We convinved my youngest that they were now too old for stockings - so he didnt notice his, crammed full of junk food and silly gifts as usual, when he gently started tearing paper off his 'not from us' presents at the godforsaken hour of 5am on xmas morning. For the first time ever, I paid attention, rememberred that my mate had once salivated over remote control helicopters at a shopping centre display and although it pained me to buy a 42 year old man a toy for xmas - I did it. He was so damned happy. Win.

We started our day, as we have for several years, at the dog beach with our beloved Weimeraners -

Anzac and Sari. We tire them out whilst connecting with nature - give the pets some attention before ignoring them for the rest of the day and reminding ourselves that though we have just opened gifts and induldged we need to appreciate the freely accessible wonders at our doorstep. Xmas morning at the beach is always gently warm, still and beautiful.

It was my turn to host this year and although some may cringe at the thought, I was over the moon. For me, it meant everyone dear to me under the one roof at the same time without me having to travel all over Perth to see them all!

My sister, her hubbie and 5 out of her 7 kids (plus a tag along but very welcome boyfriend of my oldest niece) and my partners parents and sisters family. Each family contributed to the table.

I indulged my gorgeous younger nieces with chocolate, chips and lollies - what? Its my right isnt it? I always balance with a practical gift( novelty glass) and a fun gift (giant bubbles). Always over way too quick, the day flew by with squeels from the kids (and adult kids) in the pool,

a trail of chips and xmas bon bon wrappers all over the house and a table and fridge full of leftovers. Take a look at this amazing spread of deserts my talented kitchen whiz sister contributed to our spread!
Pineapple upside down cake - a childhood memory that has evry bite flooding my brain with remembering

Toffee apple trifle
which sends my eldest into a 'smeagle - like' possessiveness
Cherry chocolate almond torte caprese

Shop sales at VintageTwists in the lead up to xmas were steady and I posted several items to people that were gifts from the buyer. What a fabulous gift - vintage - it just keeps giving doesnt it!

Ive been on a frenzy of listing in the last month - below are just some of the new items you will find in the shop.




See you on the flipside!
Alena
Vintage Twists

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Heading North

As I finish my coffee and wait for a taxi, Im contemplating the fact that I've lived in Western Australia for 32 years and this will be the furthest North I have ever travelled in my own state. In the next three days I will visit Karratha, Dampier, Paraburdoo and Tom Price for work. This year has also seen me travel to Esperance, Kalgoorlie, Geraldton, Sydney and Melbourne for work and Kalbarri for a holiday. It's been a busy year but also very rewarding.

Meeting people that live in country towns is refreshing. It reminds you to slow down, to enjoy the beautiful land we live on, live off, rely on and take advantage of.

It's like all this plane travel has been scheduled to help me get over my fear of flying, which due to severe random motion sickness has me in a constant state of anxiety from 3 days before travelling. Often I need to be horizontal for many hours after a bad flight. So, on this particular trip, I will need to fly between two of the towns in a six seater plane. No it will not be fun. The mental steps I will need to overcome to even step foot on the plane will be enourmous. But I simply have no choice. The alternative was a 7 hour drive each way.

So, big pat on the back for me for not chucking a tantrum. Because I will happily admit that I am freaking the hell out.

On the plus side, I always seem to sell several items from my shop when I travel for work, so hell to the yeah - hands in the air for ka ching ka ching while Im away from the coup.

Wish me luck!